so

i really don't like most of the people i associate myself with. i'm entirely too critical of those closest to me, and lately, i find myself getting way too worked up over entirely mundane things. or maybe they're not so mundane. either way, in the past few weeks, i've come close several times to losing my temper and just...losing it, i guess. as i've said, i'm wound too tight and don't know how to unwind.

and i don't know why, really. i can't pinpoint exactly what's causing this heightened tension, this constant being 'on the verge of frenzy'. i've always been sort of overly sensitive person, and that sensitivity has usually manifested itself in the form of a short temper, but lately i've come close to flying off the handle for almost no reason whatsoever.


whatever.

i'm done pretending that things don't piss me off. i'm done being an 'understanding' and 'accepting' person.


i should be happy for you. but instead, all i feel is resentment and bitterness.