a rock feels no pain.

i wish i couldnt see things coming from a mile away.


i'm tired of feeling like this, nothing but negative emotions. nothing but anger and sadness and frustration and anxiety, and i'm tired of getting so wrapped up in the lives of others, with their petty stupid things, and having nothing to show for it myself. because while the lives of those around me resemble knotted messes, mine is an unassuming and boring straight line. i know where it begings, i know whats happening in it, and i know where it ends. no surprises. no deviations from whats expected. nothing. its completely and utterly boring.

. i don't want to spend my life like this. i hate my job. so much. i hate the way it makes me feel. i just hate it.

not surprised.

yerp.