last day at dude house.

everything is packed up. ryan's gone. time flies, i guess.

i still remember my very first night in kutztown like it was yesterday. and i remember my first night here in dude house even better.




you know when a plane is going down and they jettison a bunch of stuff to make it lighter? yeah...im the stuff they jettison.

my room is no longer my room.

i made the mistake of taking my posters down first. now my room looks horribly empty. it's also depressingly similar to my first night here, when all my stuff was just in boxes and had yet to be unpacked.



yup. life goes on. ryan goes to michelle's, brad goes to his place in reading, and i go to easton. again.



i told ryan tonight my ideal place to live is as far from here as possible. not out of any lame 'fuck this place' attitude, but more so because i dont want to be reminded of anything.

i cracked a tooth today

awesome.

done.

today was my last day of summer classes. i am officially done with kutztown university.


i also realized yesterday i don't really like the movie 'juno'. i think ellen page's acting is abrasive at best, i want to punch whoever made the soundtrack, and michael cera reminds me of all those douchebags who think if they act sensitive girls will like them.



when i'm back in easton, before i go to california in july, i'll be living with my grandfather in southside. he's a good dude and i'm way stoked on it.


i want to go out west and put five bucks worth of morrissey songs on a jukebox in some major city, and then look around to see if any pretty girls are singing along.

swan song

so in less than a week, we move out of dude house. the dream is over. i was looking through some old pictures today, and i found a picture chrissy took of brad, ryan, and myself the day we moved in last year. i remember the moment it was taken, and i remember the day we moved in. it was such an awesome feeling: we had a whole year ahead of us. a whole year of adventures, of fun, of just good times. i myself had the rest of the summer ahead of me before i started school again. i had something to look forward to later in the week, and in a few weeks 'transformers' came out. it was just an awesome feeling. brad and i were living in a real apartment, a nice apartment, not some former party house that was falling apart. there was a clean slate. we didn't have to look back at a time when things were better like we were doing for so much of the year before. we had a whole year to do whatever we wanted. and it was awesome. our housewarming party was a blast. that summer was a blast. even when class started, when i once again had responsibility, it was still awesome. and now its all over. in a month and a half or so, im gonna be living in reading with brad, but it wont be the same. i dunno.

kutztown is done. looking back on it all, i'd like to say that i got something out of it other than a degree, but i don't feel any wiser. maybe a little more jaded on certain issues, and a little more intolerant on some things, but have i really gained anything? it all feels like i could've done it differently and better. not so much academic wise. i got mostly B's, and it sucks to say but im happy with that. i only really came to college just to do something different. it just feels like overall, i couldve done better. i dunno. i dont really believe that college is the best time of your life, because if you really want you can feel that way all of the time. not so much happy, but just the great feeling. its not restricted to college, i dont think. i dunno. i just wish i could go back, and maybe at certain times said something when in reality i said nothing.

anyway, this is stupid, and i feel stupid, but i'm not gonna delete it.

and do i gain?

a year ago at this time, i was hanging out with a bunch of crazy australian bicyclists. today, i'm hanging out with bradical and michele brazee. later i'm making cookies and lasagna.



however, i don't have a year of living with brad and ryan ahead of me.





i suspect i break even.

yah yah yah yah yah

me and brad saw jenna haze dance last night at erv's. i made it rain, and got a free poster. which she signed as follows: 'justin-cum inside my slutty as. love, jenna.'


classy.



brad and i got a picture with her. it was awesome.



she's so nice and tiny. it makes me almost miss a certain someone.



i didn't go to rhode island tonight because i woke up feeling like shit. i might hang out with jay tonight. if we do hang out, i'm gonna make him dinner. go lore.

tomorrow, brad, myself, klint, and one of the dudes from reign supreme are going back to ervs. rain shall be made again.