2009

is here. fuck it so far. fuck it, and most people. fuck it, and just about everyone i rang it in with. fuck it, and............everything.

"how've you been lately?"

"oh, you know, same old same old...going out of my mind from anxiety and loneliness."





lately i've been feeling even more cynical towards humanity than usual.


case in point: my sisters boyfriend broke up with her after she confronted him about cheating on her. she's also pregnant. with his child. he told her she's not getting child support from him and he doesn't care about doing some jail time. classy guy. now, i know this all sounds like jerry springer shit, because it does. also, i know that i normally try to distance myself from such bullshit, due to both a personal vow to not get involved with stupid stuff like that, and because i have next to no patience dealing with people who've let their emotions get the best of them and continue to make bad decision after bad decsion, even if those emotions are completely legit. but i feel that, in this case, to stand idly by and let someone slip off the mantle of responsibility and put it all upon someone else is unacceptable.

i sincerely wish i didn't have to live in a world in which such events occur, and i truly believe that this world would be a brighter and better place if his was a non-existence.




one of my teeth in the back of my mouth is causing me colossal amounts of pain when i drink something cold. the other day it broke as i was attempting to enjoy a bowl of corn flakes. i am angry at several entities. firstly, my dentist, who, upon revealing to me that my inconsiderate wisdom teeth had cracked the guilty party, refused to pull the tooth and instead pushed for a root canal. now, i refused a root canal because I DIDN'T HAVE EIGHT HUNDRED FUCKING DOLLARS FALLING OUT OF MY ASSHOLE at the moment, and because the tooth was far enough back in my mouth that vanity would not be affected if it were simply pulled. secondly, i am angry at the tooth itself for causing me such pain and ruining my bowl of corn flakes. had i the money, i would have shark DNA infused into mine, so my teeth would regrew when they were lost. not boner shark teeth, just normal, handsome human teeth. barring the lack of technology availabe i would settle for getting my teeth pulled, all of them, and replaced with crowns. i hate dentists, i hate teeth, and i hate toothaches.

i fucking love repairman jack.

the anniversary of an uninteresting event

fuck you.

not for all my little words.

i've been listening to the magnetic fields a lot lately.


they make me think of you a lot. no, not you. you.






yeah, you.

like a chinese buffet...

ill fucking do it!!!


remember boysetsfire? i do!


im stoked on the remake of the day the earth stood still.


my vegan spareribs need some tweaking. seriously.


hey pap! waddup!


assassins!


who's tryin' to kiss under the misletoe?!

in the past day, i have:

hung out with an awesome friend and cat.
ate vietnamese hoagies.
received a free reign supreme shirt.
read another third of the new repairman jack novel.
sat through several really, really bad bands that apparently only know how to play one or two chords and do stupid pig vocals.
was happy for thirty minutes as i wrecked my vocal chords, punched a stage as hard as i could, and moshed so hard i suspect i'll be badly paying for it tomorrow.
connected with someone totally rad over extremely mundane but awesome things...while peeing.



my ears are ringing. i cant make a fist. my throat is raw and i sound like im going through puberty. my ribs feel cracked and my muscles are sore. i cant take a breath without it hurting to a degree. my head is pounding. but i couldn't be happier right now. thank you so very much.

today.

i woke up.
ate a huge breakfast.
failed. failed. failed.
was miserable.
hung out jay and brad.
had adventures.
saw crazy people.
got hugged.
came home.



in a few hours, i shall feast!!!